Sunday, April 12, 2015

Where In the World Have I Been?

Where have I been for the past 6 weeks. M.I.A right? I took some time to re-group and just breath.

I pretty much skipped over a ton of things and life Events that have occurred overt the past 3 months, so I am going to try and sum them up, and go from there!! 


Jesus Has moved in a huge way, I feel like I say that all of the time, and I do!
 (Of course right? He's all knowing and just Rocks, there is not a good enough word to even describe him.)
 That always amazes me, and stops me right in my tracks.

  1.  My Husband took a huge leap of faith- and started his own business.
  2. I was finally obedient and Organized a women's gathering Called Encounter. Our First gathering Happened last month, on March 21st.
  3. My husband transitioned over to the Church that we have been wanting to attend for over 1/2 a year. Huge Blessing and a total God thing. 
  4. My Children have really started arguing, it's real. 
  5. I took a break in School, not sure at this point when I am going to return.
  6. I met some pretty amazing women.
  7.  God purged me again. Growing Pains are real. Embracing it.

To sum it up, It's been crazy around here, in the best way possible. Work around this time of year is pretty tough too, so balancing it all out has been a real learning curve for me.

Something that I would like to share with you all, is that I have been going through is some serious

"People pleasing anxiety" Purging. Jesus knows my Struggle with with. And because I asked him to help, He Stepped in and Did.

And the Purging began.

Whenever you are being separated from ugly sin, you are going to go through growing pains, and that's the truth. There is a lot that plays in our hearts whenever we are so concerned with pleasing others and what they think.

 Pride, Selfishness, Jealousy, Envy, or just really having an ugly hearts towards a situation.

 If you mix all of that up and add brokenness, shame, hurt, embarrassment, and pain, It is a perfect set up to just create another strong hold and issue. 

Man, I have always suffered with this. I want everyone to like me and to accept me. Even with my huge "front" up, the whole- "I don't think what they care!" And, " I am good either way" act, I'm still looking for an "Ok" and and acceptance. 

I think that there is a right and definitely a healthy way of really getting to a place where you really are not concerned about what people think-

And that happens when you start having confidence in who you are IN our FATHER. If we truly understood our worth and who belong to- then we would only be waking up to worship and love our God. We have to really get to the bottom of why we are so hungry for others to love, like, or accept us. When you start to look and see why, you begin to pull out a lot more than what you thought was in there, or was even a problem.

See, there is nothing that we can do to make God love us more, he just does. He see's us through the eyes of Jesus. He see's love and hope in US because of the Cross. We are made perfect in the Cross.

This is my Joy and my Hope. 

Be encourages sisters in Christ- Lets live a life of Worship in Love and in Relationship with the Father, this is the only way to get away and break any type of bondage.

This Blog post was a running start for me again, to get back in and re-ignite my fire.

 I am committed to writing on my blog once a week, it is so good for my soul and my heart. It is therapy, and a great excuse for "me time".

I missed this, and I am excited to be back. I love you all.

And as always,

You Rock,
XOXO- Alexandra

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